Finally on Tuesday night, she e-mailed me. Check this out:
I know I did the right thing by ending it with her, but it hurts like hell. We'll never make love together, I'll never meet her 8-year-old son, and I'll never see her face or hear her voice again. The tears are flowing down my cheeks as I type these words.
We had connected on so many different levels; we seemed so right for each other. And now she does this. For the love of god, why???
This has happened to me so many times before. I meet a woman, things are going great, and then an old boyfriend or ex-husband shows up and blows everything to hell. Why does this keep happening to me? I don't deserve this misery!
Two years ago, I removed myself from the dating scene following a hideous experience in which a woman I went out with twice attempted suicide when I decided not to see her again. After two years, I finally mustered up the courage to throw my hat back in the ring; and my first time out, this was what I got. Now I remember why I've spent so much of my life isolating and not letting people in.
I know ---- can't help how she feels; but at the same time, goddamn her for deceiving me and betraying my trust!
And yet, if ---- called me today to say that she and the other guy were through and asked me for a second chance, I might just give it to her.